Since we didn't have a camera Friday night, I decided to post these ones up since we pretty much did the same thing, hahaha. I miss them already!

asdfjkl; i don't know what i'm doing. real talk: i like crushing 'cause the butterflies never end. especially if the flirting is reciprocated. man, i hope this tuesday night is a go! i'm getting my hopes up... ima be really sad if tuesday night doesn't happen. oh man. i can't even write properly... i'm just so caught up in my thoughts in a good way! haha, i've got the giggles.

two things i've missed as of late

pretty much...

My parents are conversational wizards. I love them. I told them that on the phone and they both were like "uh huh okay bye" hahahaha. I'm visiting LA this coming Saturday. I'm not too excited but I figured that a visit is long overdue. I need to pick up my face toner and a warm comforter for the house, anyway. I need to work my ASS off this upcoming week. Gotta study. Gotta go to Tap Ex or something. I'm so behind in all of my classes. It's sad. Anyway, I had an amazingly chill weekend! The 80's party was pretty easygoing, with a few outrageous costumes here and there. I had a good time. :) It's Monday, gotta get going!

I'm clearly gonna be late for lab...

Meh. I'm glad I'll be fed well this coming weekend. Tonight is our Womens-A celebratory dinner at Ate Donna's right after vow, and who knows what after with the other Donna? Maybe? Puaha. Tomorrow's the GEM! 11am, so early. Lunch/early dinner at Uncle Noel's place in Poway. Crab legs and bbq, I'm so looking forward to that. Possibly a free late dinner at Chipotle... just gotta find me some foil. Sunday will be ran more at my expenses than anything. Haydee and Kay's 80's Birthday Party! I'm so excited... I still don't know what to freaking wear. I hope to find a camera I can borrow. I love having new pictures. :)

All I have to do is get past this lab and I'm freeeeeeeeeee.

The weekend is gone and here I am watching Scrubs Season 8. My secret buddy knows me too well. If only he/she could get me the rest of the show. *Hint hint* :)

I'm waiting for Annabelle to finish her shift so I can do homework. I've yet to start on my take home midterm, as well as start/finish my lab conclusion from last Friday. Eleanor checked out the place, I hope that if AC decides to move out, that she'll move in. She's cool. Gave me a scare though, bringing in her nephew and calling him her own. Phew, glad she was just kidding around. Hahaha

Nothing much to write about. This past weekend was awesome... this week is s blah.

I can't even bring to words how amazing my past weekend has been. Let me just recap you on everything:

Friday

- Lab was so boring and so frustrating. I didn't take my physics quiz, thankfully, which means I have to take the rest of them. Oh well.

- Met up with Annabelle and shuttled it to her place, waited for her to quickly finish getting ready, then went to my place so that I could quickly get ready, then left. Bought some pineapple/cranberry juice at Vons and a few drinks at 7-Eleven and then headed over to Mira Mesa's Holiday Inn Express to meet up with Ej and Ken.

- Dealt with annoying traffic but finally arrived at Downtown for the usual: Sushi Deli! Met up with Mahvy and Weggie and had a good time waiting! It was chill. Annabelle has pictures of us... I especially love our Marvin picture. :D7 <--the "7" is supposed to be Marvin's thumb/index finger bwahaha.

- Walked around Gas Lamp for a bit... finally found Urban Outfitters & Ghiradellis. Ended up having to rush back to our car because our validation was about to expire and as we exited the Horton parking structure found Kyle, Ryan, and Marty! Drove over to some $10 parking lot and headed over to Sé's hotel where they were staying.

- Mahvy and Reggie ended up stopping by the hotel. Too bad Marty and I aren't 21+. All we wanted to do was lounge at the freaking pool, too. Meow.

Saturday

- Odd how we didn't get into the lounge upstairs but had no trouble getting into the one downstairs! All of us (Marty, Eric, Kyle, Ryan [birthday boy], Allan, Annabelle) just chilled outside and I honestly had one of the best nights ever! The music was freaking loud. Random ass people at Downtown, I swear! I was given one of the ugliest flowers in the world by some random dude, hahaha. It was also freaking convenient how 7-Eleven was right next to the hotel. Midnight hot dogs/chicken wings for the win? I think so! The lounge was also freaking fun! Annabelle got a new nickname and we all enjoyed watching her earn that title, HAHAHA! Kyle fell down the stairs (too bad we all missed it). The unisex bathroom there is one of the sickest bathrooms I have ever seen! Every hotel needs one just like it.

- Finally felt the need to crash so we all moved up to the room. Kyle had an epic moment and was back on his feet in no time. Marty, Annabelle, Eric and I shared one bed. Wowow. The birthday boy was the first one to knock out.

- Annabelle and I woke up around 5:50am and left downtown around 6! Thanks Marty and Kyle for walking us back to the car! The fog was effing dense, I'm glad we made it back safe.

- Showered/got ready for volleyball in twenty minutes and left the house around 7am.

- Put $10 worth of gas in my car, picked up a sausage, egg, and cheese biscuit from McDonalds, and drove to Alliant Int'l University for the tourny. I ended up having to drive back to some gas station to pull out $5 in cash 'cause no one warned me about the parking fee. Gay.

- TOURNAMENT WAS SOOOOO AWESOME!!!! Totally owned our first match against Phoenix! We had a four-game break so I just chilled while watching other teams play. Hung out with my parents as well. We split our match against Montclair :( Stupid time limit... we would have owned. We had to play Long Beach first during playoffs and won! We then played LA during semifinals and won again! It was Las Vegas vs. NSD for the finals. We lost our first game (augh) and then beat them our second and third games! IT WAS SOOOOOO INTENSE!!! We had such nice serving runs and kills, digs and covers, oh my goodness. I love NSD. I LOVE OUR CROWD!!! EVERYONE WAS SCREAMING! It has to be one of the best feelings in the world. LA never has a crowd like that!!! Whenever we'd get aces or kills everyone was freaking bawling with effing joy! I'm so glad we won. My first victory and it was with a team of great, wonderful girls! I love NSD. I know I'm being repetitive but I honestly do.<3

- After the tourny/awarding, I had dinner with my family at the ever-so-popular Panda Express, hahaha...

- Went home, took a shower. Natasha & Annie slept over! It was chill. I was just so freaking tired, running on 2 hours of sleep. Annie and Keilyn were having a play date. It was so cute watching them munch on Special K from the same bowl while watching Toy Story 2, haha! Annabelle came over and we decided to get drinks at Tap Ex. It was random seeing him and his friend Nathan there! Of all places, La Jolla!? Haha. As I was hugging Nathan goodbye, I knocked over his hand and his drink spills! How slick, right!? I was so embarrassed. Thankfully, the cute worker from Tap Ex makes him another drink for free. Oh my wow. So much for a nice first impression, hahaha. Annabelle and I chilled outside Tap Ex for a bit, then headed back to my place, and chilled outside for a bit with Natasha. Annabelle left a while later and I went to sleep not too long after. I was exhausted.

Sunday

- I was so sleepy this morning during worship service. There were a bunch of brothers from Las Vegas there, but I didn't say hi to any of them because I was too focused on the cheese balls from Valerios the locale bought dedicated to our victory! I swear, our locale is soooo nice! Ka Joven made this big announcement after all the circulars were read! I saw Melinda smiling, and I'm pretty sure I wasn't looking coy at all when everyone started clapping for Womens A, hahaha.

- Choir practice was quick! When Ate El realized no one was at the organ, Ka Shirley was like "Want me to play???" hahahaha. General meeting was funny! The wedding announcements were hilarious. Haha, I love this locale, geez!!!

- Killed $30 for my secret buddy gift since I missed two months of it. Oh well, now I'm caught up. I'm MAC Assistant Chair next year! Woo! Gino, Annabelle, Richard and I were making bets to see how long our caucus was gonna be. Annabelle won, hahaha.

- Finally home. :) Time to study for my midterm tomorrow.

This week

is almost over. I didn't go to school today because I half-deserved to sleep in this morning. I did alright on my midterm! I'm glad I studied/resisted the urge to hang out the past few days. I'm left with no guilt trip, which is freaking awesome. I've got a long night ahead of me though. I have to finish up my lab report/study for my physics quiz. Mew. All this after church. So excited for church! :) This is it. Miri's sleeping on the floor in front of me and I don't want to wake her by typing so loud. Ahh, bye for now.

Studying hard. Tap Ex Day&Nite. I want to go to our last volleyball practice tomorrow night, so I really need to straighten up and get my stuff done. I'm exhausted. This couch, this apartment, no good. Everything's so comfortable. I'm sleeping at Jade's tonight. Hopefully I get to turn in some homework tomorrow. I really need to learn everything. Seriously. No joke. I hate this, I really do. At least my psyc test was postponed to next Monday. I'd rather have that than fail one exam and do mediocre on the other. About to pick up Minah so we can go back to Tap Ex. Busy busy beeeeee.

I can't even be remotely attracted to him. It would be no good, to me or to the situations if something were to happen. Stop it, Ally!
I'm at Annabelle's. :) Jade's in T-Mec so I get to sleep on the memory foam side of her bed! Woooooo. I'm at the lowest of low on gas, so I'm carpooling with Annabelle to the Mira Mesa park & ride tomorrow. I guess I'm also playing volleyball after our Horsemanship Community Service activity... 5-7pm, that shouldn't be too bad. $5, that's pretty bad. Meow.
I'm feeling good. I can't even handle my blah-blah anymore. Oh man. Gotta step it up.
I don't know why I'm writing right now. Good night<3

Halo/Walking On Sunshine

I'm not ashamed to admit I love Glee. I love Glee. The jerk in the show (I don't even know his character's name) is amazingly gorgeous. I'd so do him.

Anyway, I just had another chill night. I finished my conclusion to last week's lab and my pre-lab for tomorrow's. I know I'm way behind with chem, but it's good to know that I'm kind of on top of everything else. I'm pretty terrified about this coming Wednesday: Psyc exam 5-6:20p, Chem midterm 7-9p. I'm determined to figure everything out by then. I'm dead serious. This week's been chill, and I don't regret anything. I'm so excited to buckle down. I don't know, I feel I just need to reset every once in a while. In my case, every two weeks? Haha. Volleyball's been going well. I don't think I'll be playing as much 'cause everyone's just so good, but I'm okay with that! I hear that Saturday night's gonna be pretty fun with everyone in effing San Diego. So excited for the kickback's after volleyball. Woo! :)

I don't know what's up with me. I guess I've just been single for too long and fooling around for too long of a period of time. I want someone to date. I don't mean to come off desperate or anything because I'm not. I don't need anyone. It would be nice, however, to have someone to just call when you feel like having a conversation. I take all these study breaks and just look through all my old text messages 'cause I have no one to waste my time on. Okay, that sounded bad, but you know what I mean, haha. I don't even know what I'm saying. I just want to be treated well without worrying about commitments or drama. Yup. That was my point.

Kadiwa Horsemanship community service is on Saturday. I feel good for having things to do on Saturdays, but still... I'd like to sleep in once in a while without having to worry about getting ready. This is what I asked for though - a fast paced fall quarter. I'm doing my part. Almost. I need to focus more on school and less on having a good time. The good times should be my reward. Living off campus is great! I actually have control over when to have fun and when to buckle down. Yeah. 

This is the fastest I've typed, ever, for a blog. It's weird how I have all these things to say now. I'm just glad that I won't have to wake up too early. Miri might want to shower or freshen up later this morning, so I set my alarm for 10a so that if she needs me, I'll be up. Oh shit, Grey's Anatomy is up on ABC's website. I'll watch it tomorrow. I'm not up for staying awake another hour and a half. I know the show's only 40-something minutes, but I've got to take into account the minutes I'll be awake obsessing over what I just watched. Haha. I'm effing nuts right now. My fingers talk more than my mouth. Oh well. I really am wondering what I'm gonna do tomorrow. Everyone's going to LA for Kaskade (yes, surprisingly, that is how it's spelled). I wish I was going. Oh well. Too late for that. At least Ryan will be over his "I'm saving it for Kaskade" phase. Waiting for another good time. Crap. After my midterm, perhaps? :) Lalala

I guess I'll go to sleep now. Until next time!

Annabelle's on my bed and I'm on the floor blogging. People are hanging out downstairs and that's chill. Just got back from Ryan's place. Glad to be in my pjs and within the warmth that is our second floor. Gah, I feel so f-ing good. Ryan and I are gonna do a collabo on this beat he made. It's gonna be dope and it'll be on his Myspace Music page. He's pretty darn poetic and eloquent.

I really wish Miri was there today. I like experiencing firsts with her 'cause she knows exactly how to make me feel my best. Plus, she's always down, which is a plus. (<-- Wow, redundant much?!) I feel so lightheaded but good, you know? Like, I'm laying here, on my floor, typing with my eyes closed. All I can hear is the sound of my typing and a few sentences from the movie 40 Days and 40 Nights. Lalala, I wanna go out for a break, but I don't want to walk. Meow, I should stop typing before I say something I don't mean to publicize. Bye Bye

I had the best night.

My Tuesday:

- I totally did NOT wake up to do homework at 6a, which is why I lost 20-something points in chem today. Mew. :(

- Took a half-awake/half-asleep nap when I got home. T'was lame. I really need to fix my phone so that my alarm works.

- Started & finished my laundry at Jade/Annabelle's place! I finally have clothes. I was down to my last underwear.

- Volleyball practice on base was freaking awesome. I find myself oddly attracted to someone. I really shouldn't be. That would be plainly wrong. I love our cheers and our momentum.

- HANGING OUT WITH MIRI, BRIAN, AND RYAN WAS THE EFFING BEST. THE EFFFFFFING BEST. I LOVE MOLLY. RYAN'S DRIVES WERE AMAZING. TECHNO THUMPING THROUGH THE SPEAKERS WHILE DRIVING ALL OVER NORTH SAN DIEGO = AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eff You,

You're in my head again. Get out. I know I don't have a chance.

My sincere apologies,

Ally

Meow

I don't even know if I should try anymore. Certain circumstances in my life are out of my hands, like the one this morning for instance. I turned someone's day into a horrible one before noon even struck. I didn't mean to do what I did. Quite frankly, I was oblivious to it as it was happening. And it wasn't just any one person, either. I'm a horrible person without even trying. A friendship/relationship is deteriorating and it's mostly my fault. I'm too much. I need to tone down my personality and blend in more.

Absolutely hate

Overly narcissistic people. It's okay to post up good pictures of yourself on Facebook. It's another to post, like, 3 million good shots of yourself and bad shots of your friends. Please, get over yourself.

The past few days have been pretty awesome for me!

Sunday - I love love love performing at the 11 a.m. I have much more in me to go about my day instead of feeling bitter for not being able to nap. The emergency officers' meeting went longer than expected, but it's okay 'cause Uncle Noel treated us out to really good (but expensive) Spanish food at PB. Costa Brava is such a cute restaurant. Quaint in that Spanish way, I suppose. Went to Twin Peaks for open gym and I had such a good time. I know I'm reiterating, but I love the team chemistry! Everyone's understanding, and it's nice not having to worry about clashing personalities. Showered and stayed in bed once I got home, watched the most recent episode of Grey's, and KOd around 2.

Monday - woke up at 1p! Having late days steers me away from ditching class, but it's such a hassle having to stay at school to 7p. Thankfully, Dan and I have the same class! Free rides home = poyfect. :) Nothing much happened. Studied for chem @ TapEx and got a bitching from my parents for not being home. Break with Annabelle @ Warren. More chem, knocked out at 2, blah blah.

Today - HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVE!!! I finally got all my textbooks! I can study whenever the hell I want to now, haha. Went to Sushi Deli 3 with Steve and Richard and had a good time! Now for more chem.

Life's good, I don't know what else to say.

Wow

I always do this. I always post a blog right before I get my period. Please excuse my last entry. I became menstrual this morning, yay! Once again, I have a legitimate excuse for being hormonal!

Like I had said earlier, volleyball was freaking fun! I guess I just had to play with A-team to realize how good a team we are! Everyone knows how to play! It's fun! I'm excited to play on Tuesday! Haha :)

Teach You A Lesson Remix = new favorite song. It's so fucking sexy. Robin Thicke ft. Drake, what more can you ask for?

Okay, I really have to shower. Bye bye :)

I hate visiting LA locale. Seriously. I guess it's because I grew up there and have seen the ups and downs of every person, relationship, and endeavor. I'm honestly sick of it: the fakeness, lack of spirituality and brotherhood, all of it. Being in their presence for the four hours of the event was an uncomfortable experience for me. I don't know, I'm pretty sure it's just me who feels this way. I tend to make things seem bigger than what they actually are. Oh well. I love San Diego. If my parents make me transfer back, I'll be performing with Eagle Rock. Done deal.

I really do think I'm a self saboteur. I have a handful of friends who put up with my shit and too many acquaintances who don't have the heart to. Meow. I don't know what to think of myself right now. I guess I should just ignore all complicated thoughts about it for now because in all honesty, I'm having a good time here! I don't plan on visiting LA anytime soon. I can't stand my sister (really, my tolerance for her is at a zero) and my parents can only handle me for less than four hours because by the end of the 41st, they were already losing their patience. They had the nerve to call me asking if I was okay. They didn't even say bye to me. They didn't care that I was too effing sleepy to drive. This just made me realize how fake my family is to me. I'm just some fucking investment for them.

I've just pissed myself off even more. I had a good time playing volleyball today and hope to feed off the same energy on Tuesday. Thank you, Chris, for the calamansi. I'm going to sleep before I get carried away in this silence.

This is to you,

amazingly sexy dude in the bus with me today:

You are SO fine. Your dirty blonde curls, your tall physique, your mesmerizing smile, your green eyes (or were they grey?). Wow. I enjoyed our three seconds eye contact, and your awkward smirk at the end. I hope to see you again next Friday, 5:36pm, on the 41. I will one day have you leave the bus with me. :)

Love,

Ally